undivided devotion

This summer has been hard; I will admit it. It is interesting to think back to the spring and hear what I was saying then, "I just want to exist  this summer, to be ." My desire was to not be bound by school schedules or demanding jobs, but to merely exist as a person. Well, that's what I did. And, to be honest, I did not handle it well. I moved home for the first time in three years. I live in my childhood room and sleep in my childhood bed. I work a few hours a week in a job that is nowhere close to what my degree was in. All of this is fine, it's a blessing, it is necessary. My days consist of not much. They are not that productive, or even measurable. I do not have a job, apartment, car, ministry, or relationship to impress people with. And I have not handled it well. Until recently, I did not realize how much of my evaluation of myself is measured by these things. In school, I always had the fact that I was going to Bible school as my go-to to impress oth