undivided devotion

We raced to the gravesite after the funeral. Late, because of my absentmindedness: I forgot we needed to bury your body. My brain still hadn’t realized you were dead.   My wee infant screamed the whole five minute drive, because she woke up from a long nap in my arms, and I had disturbed her to buckle her and she was super hungry. Because I didn’t feed her before. Because of my absentmindedness: I forgot we needed to bury your body. My brain still hadn’t realized you were dead.   I nursed her tiny body in the front seat of the car, in the blistering heat, both our bodies sweating in this foreign heat. He corralled the two toddlers towards the dark tent where the family was gathered to bury your body. I could see all of them over there, across the sunny cemetery, huddled under the tent trying to grasp every bit of shade, waiting for this tiny stomach to be filled. I had forgotten what time they wanted to start. Because, I forgot we needed to bury your body. My brain sti...